soon.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
with ♥ 12:22 PM
surprisingly, im blogging @ 12.25pm on a tuesday. which of cos, means i didnt go school, and i wont pon school one. yep, im bloody sick. *exasperated sighs*
i hate being sick. cant do ath bt mope around the house.
jieying, i take back my words abt me wanting to be sick so tt i can sleep. -.-" sleep too much i feel bit gong okay. sighs. and sick i cant seem to study. sheesh. and yee's sick too. yst both of us were sneezing like mad. used up.... 4 packs of tissue i tink. she passed the virus to me one luh. zzz. and today supposed to do lit proj. one!! crap. i dont know if my mum wil let me out to do the stupid video crap. its so stupid lor. i hate doin such stuff. ms yeo die also dont wan 2 gif us another option. ugh. sorry guys.
this post is gonna be
solemn. because of so many problems, some rly dire. they're happening to ppl around me, and it hurts me rly badly to see them like this. i shant be naming names here, cos i noe they wont wan it. bt im jus hoping that after they see this, and what i gave them.. they'll feel better and stop what they're doing.
dude.
dont hurt yourself anymore. X( wen u came to school i alrdy saw it immediately. no point hiding dude, cos im observant smtimes. during the national anthemn and stuff i was contemplating whether to say. bt i guess emotions gt e better of me. and dude. when i cried, that came frm the
bottom of my heart. dont tell me im jus emotional. it pains me to see you like this okay. and dont give me those
shit like
"its not you also mah". well
let me tell you this dude. seeing my close fren like this, it pains me nt physically bt emotionally. X'( so dont do it anymore.. okay? i might not be the first person u turn to wen you're sobbing. bt i jus wanna let you noe im always here for you a call away. and everyone's feeling the stress and stuff, you're nt alone. jus stop hurting yourself okay? plus, wil leave scar, and wont be pretty anymore. im sorry i didnt go school today. couldnt pass you stuff. i will tml dude.
this refers to another person, nt the same one mentioned above. dude..
face the reality. how much longer can you last like that? jus go home. apologize to your parents. they probably cool off alrdy. they probably jus
灰心 alrdy, tts why. you'll nid time to prove to them frm square one again that you've changed. and i noe its hard. bt u hafta do it one fine day isnt it? you cant possibly live like that, can you? and once the money runs out. what are you going to do? work?
it isnt tt simple. you noe it isnt. sighs. you gotta put yourself in your parents shoes. they're hurting jus as much. take my advice and apologize, okay? and i noe some things has happened and i wont type it here.. bt like i said your parents are hurting jus as much. really. do try to understand them.. its like. what if your child nxt time kips doing the same mistake? and its nt sth tt can be reversed and you kip forgive them. and after a while your child seems changed then all of a sudden he/she repeats the mistake. you'd feel rly pissed and hurt and sad and anguished too. so bottom line. go home and admit you're wrong. or write a letter to your parents. i'll be here for you and help you in any way i can. i promise.
sighs. how not to feel depressed and troubled when my close frens haf probs like this? maybe ppl cold-hearted wil say
"aiyah nt ur prob also." well. to those wit the same mentality, you're nt a gd fren @ all. if u are you'd feel the pain; you rly wil. and i figured i cant be a counsellor. i really cant. i'll be crying and crying wit every single patient. geez. sighs. and frens around me all are so.. moody? cranky? i dont know. everyone seems to be on the verge alrdy. a tiny push and off they go down the cliff. sighs. cheer up, ppl. things wil get better soon.
and as for myself. i did lotsa reflecting. analysing. i thought alot everywhere i went and i guess i tot it thru le. im jus gonna wait here silently. i put myself in his shoes and i guess i've been a
complete selfish person. X( and i dont know when you'll be reading this, bt
stop having those silly thoughts okay. 我会为爱情和幸福等待，因为那也是一种幸福。 and love aint love w/o hardships okay.
if i dont give up, you cant too.
thats all i guess. i gotta go eat porridge le. -.-" sighs.
i rly hate being sick. =jinghui=
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